Nothing a couple of panadol won’t fix

6 Jun

Its enormity, which I believed I understood, has been settling on me in waves.

Like yesterday, as I sat at the side of the bed of a man I love, a woman I have been smiling at all week but whose name I do not know, stopped and said ‘we’re going home’. Her nod, her smile, her look were small. ‘It’s at that point. There’s nothing more they can do for him’. I don’t speak because there is no need and because this time is hers.

I wonder how much more there is I am yet to understand. And how I ever will.

And then, in bed at seven, because I couldn’t stand or sit or think, my boys snuggled in with me. They brought me a glass of water, did sums together, took turns to pat me, and when the mister got home (delayed by fog) they said ‘shhhh…Mum’s got a thumping head’.


13 Responses to “Nothing a couple of panadol won’t fix”

  1. Pavlov's Cat June 6, 2008 at 1:39 pm #


  2. Pavlov's Cat June 6, 2008 at 1:39 pm #


  3. SQ June 6, 2008 at 3:09 pm #


  4. Stomper Girl June 6, 2008 at 5:52 pm #

    What good boys. Cx

  5. Zoe June 6, 2008 at 7:25 pm #

    big hug, 3C

  6. blackbird June 6, 2008 at 7:56 pm #

    I’ll hold you close while you work on it.

  7. Helen June 6, 2008 at 8:08 pm #


  8. suse June 6, 2008 at 9:54 pm #

    Oh. Oh I’m sorry.


  9. Jennifer June 7, 2008 at 8:29 am #

    I’m sorry tc.

  10. fifi June 7, 2008 at 8:53 pm #

    Big fat hug.

  11. meggie June 9, 2008 at 7:09 am #

    Oh hugs xx

  12. Ariel June 9, 2008 at 10:53 am #

    I’m sorry, too. What lovely boys. x

  13. ThirdCat June 10, 2008 at 1:48 pm #

    Youse are all very lovely.
    Thanks. Really.

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